My Journey

My life has been a colorful tapestry of laughter, tears, mistakes, lessons, healing, and love.  Oh, how I used to beat myself up about all of the pieces that I believed were "ugly." Now, I hug ALL the versions of me.  I have embraced how valuable each of them has been to my BEcoming.  I honor the fullness of mySELF  and I celebrate all the steps I have had to take to get here! Wanna hear more?!  Wondering if we are a fit to work together?!  Grab something yummy to drink and let's dive in…

For as long as I can remember, I have been searching for peace inside my body. As a victim of sexual violence at a young age, I spent countless years trying to “reclaim” the body I was being asked to live in within this human form. Skin that was very uncomfortable - skin that felt unsafe - skin that didn’t feel “whole” enough to keep me safe from things and experiences that would cause trauma. For years, that process of reclaiming was neither healthy nor effective. I used substances, things and people to try to numb what was causing me so much pain and certainly never entertained the idea of “going inside” to sit with that chaos. I just wanted it to stop being chaotic, shut up, and leave me well enough alone. It never worked that way for me.

Countless times, I would find myself trapped inside my head, inside of my life choices, and inside the chaos that was ever present in the landscape of my being. I stayed running as a way to avoid looking at all of it and I stayed trying to wish it all away. Again, that never - ever - worked.

Now, for clarity, my life wasn’t chaos 24/7 - I mean, I don’t think I would have survived that. No, my life has had many beautiful things and moments sprinkled throughout the journey. Those sprinklings were gifts and many times in my past I used them as distractions from the truth of what I needed to heal. Ways to avoid the deeper dives that needed to be done. Life is a cycle - and this too shall pass. That includes the good stuff also. So, when the wheel of life would turn to experiences that were heavy and challenging, the chaos would return to the playground of healing that had not been done.

I came into this world knowing that everything was connected and interweaved in a way that my human brain doesn’t always understand. I began learning about energy healing before I knew my ABCs, thanks to my grandmother, Petra Valentine. I have been a Licensed Massage Therapist and during the process of learning this beautiful healing modality, I came face to face with the fact that our muscles hold memories. Good memories and really heavy memories - our bodies house them all until we let them go. Several years later, I became a Certified Kripalu Yoga Teacher and during that beautiful month-long immersive experience, I became intimately familiar with the fact that our energy bodies also hold memories and experiences that require our healing attention.

I have experienced many modalities of healing, and each have had value to me and given me gifts that I couldn’t conceptualize possible before engaging in the work. Somewhere in late 2016, I found myself at a plateau that I did not know how to navigate. I wasn’t happy or sad. I was resigned to my story that I had done ALL the healing that I was capable of doing and thought I should simply get used to the weight of my life’s backpack that I was (still) carrying around. HA!! I had no idea what the universe had in store for me to get me to the next level…

In walks Grandmother Medicine - and no, not becoming a grandmother. I had never even HEARD of that medicine prior to then and I certainly did not know the powerful healing that it could help facilitate.  I sat in my first ceremony and what I had previously thought of as being "gutted open" by healing experiences was fully and wholly redefined.  Without going into the whole shenanigans of it all, I will say that I walked out of that ceremony with a knowing that I cannot un-know.  That knowing includes that we are all divine beings having a human experience; that we are all creators and the ones being created, over and over again. That knowing included the fact that everything I was seeking outside of myself - - - forgiveness, happiness, expansion, peace - - - all lived inside of me, and I needed to apply more LOVE to unlock the energy I was seeking. That knowing includes that I am perfect in all of my imperfections, and I am fully and wholly responsible to set myself free - - - or not. I get to own it either way and within that knowing is profound empowerment. Not to say that I haven't lit any dumpster fires since that ceremony (and the many that have followed) ...I mean, I am human after all. 

Now, I find myself happier, more grounded, able to navigate the shit that life throws at me in a more peaceful way, and more "in charge" of myself and my life.  Being in charge means ownership of where I am on my path and knowing I can change that as I desire.  I am thriving and more comfortable in my skin than I have - well - ever been and I am so excited for all the many adventures yet to come to me in this life!   I look forward to walking alongside you as you engage in your process of shedding old stories, healing hurts, expanding your light, loving your shadow and birthing yourself over and over again into your highest most divine self.

I have the blessing of marrying my extensive business experience with my passion for helping the collective heal, expand, and BEcome. MY PASSION IS TO HELP YOU FIND YOUR PURPOSE AND TO HELP YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR VERY ESSENCE. That passion and purpose encapsulates my core mission and speaks to the foundation on which I have grown Blackbird Soul Healing.